Time Flies

My internship has officially been over for about a week and a half, and I have about two weeks of summer left. It's kind of crazy.

I'm really not all that sad or upset about my summer not having so much of the "vacation" part as it has in the past 18 years. I'm looking forward to school starting again, but I'm also worrying about the people that I will miss. I've barely seen one of my cousins, Emily, at all this summer, but that will be remedied when she comes with my family to Deep Creek Lake next week. That'll definitely be strange, to have barely seen her at all to being with her for a week and then to having one more week until I'm back at school and we don't see each other anymore. And then there's Jim. The boyfriend. We made it through last school year ok and then the first two months of this summer. We actually didn't even see each other as much as I would have liked for my first week back, but we've been together for a lot of the last couple of days, and I know that I'm getting re-attached. After we get back from the lake, I'll only have one more week to spend with him before I go back to school. I know it's probably harder for him when I leave, not to sound conceited but it's just different. When I leave, he's the one still at home, used to me being around, while I'm going somewhere where I'm not used to seeing him all the time so it's just a different kind of missing-him. I got to experience his end when his band went on tour earlier this year. For the few days that he was gone, I was constantly thinking "oh Jim would like this, we should go there tonight" or "I should see if Jim wants to come over and make s'mores tonight" and then remembering that he wasn't there to come see me. It definitely wasn't a good feeling, and I wish that he didn't have to experience it when I leave.

This summer has definitely been a new thing, all in all. I think I've grown up this summer, I think I've changed. Not a lot, not necessarily in very obvious ways, but on the edges, in little pieces on the inside. I think I can take care of myself a little better now. I think I know myself better, and I've opened the window a tiny bit more on what I might want out of independent life. I'm glad that this summer played out the way it did. I needed it, and I am grateful for it.

Now I just have two weeks left until my sophomore year in college starts!