Yes, I'm about three, technically four seeing as I'm on the East coast and it's past midnight, days late. Whoops! This is typical for me (but hopefully not for long).
I didn't really do anything special for New Year's, I just hung out with my friends. I couldn't drink or anything anyway - not that I do anyway because I'm underage right - because I had my wisdom teeth out last Thursday and was still on various meds by New Year's Eve. Jim and I kissed in 2013 in my car in a Denny's parking lot. It was magical.
I've actually been using the last few days to really think about the upcoming year and my resolutions, in addition to this just being part of my naturally bad blogging habits. I kind of disagree with the whole "new year, new me" thing, just because I believe that if you really want to change a part of your life then you can just do it. It's still kind of a nice sentiment though.
In 2013...
I want to read at least one book every month, and keep a list of the ones that I finish. I love to read, and I used to read so much, but I do it so much less since I started college. It's not that I've lost interest, or even that I don't have time because I waste an unbelievable amount of time on the internet. I just don't read like I used to, and I miss it. I want to bring books and stories back into my life, the way they were when I was younger.
I want to get in better shape. I don't have any kind of weight loss goal or a certain pants size that I'm trying to fit into or anything. I just want to become more comfortable in my body. I'm 5'3" and about 150lbs, although to my benefit people will usually guess me at at least 20 pounds under that, I guess I just carry it well. I don't look fat, my clothes aren't too tight, it's not too difficult for me to find things that fit. I look fine, I am average. I acknowledge this. That doesn't make me any more comfortable with myself though. I've had body image issues since I was probably about 12 years old, which also sounds normal even though it shouldn't be. I've always been a little bigger than most of my friends, and it made me very self conscious when I was in high school. I'm definitely become a lot more comfortable with myself in the last year and a half (just ask my roommates, I walk around in my underwear all the time) and I want to actively keep with that trend. I want to be healthy, I want to be in shape. I want to feel good.
I need to take school more seriously. I've always been a huge procrastinator and it's resulted in me losing hours of sleep and not getting the best grades that I could, and I really need to change that. School is number one right now, and I need to keep it that way.
I want to become more and less serious. I'm always thinking about the future and I need to save money and Jim needs to save money and I need to consider all of my career options and what should I major in and what should I minor in and should I take this class and I need to get this really good summer internship and all of these things that are on the road to growing up. I do need to keep all of them in mind, and there are certainly aspects of my life in which I really do need to start growing up. But I also can't forget that I'm still only 19. I have time to have fun.
I want to try to cut down and minimalize. I've been cleaning out my bedroom at home since break started and I just have so much stuff. I've been throwing away homework assignments from tenth grade and bad drawings from 2006. I'm really bad at getting rid of things that I don't need, and I need to stop keeping everything. It's OK to throw things away. Sometimes you just need to simplify.
I want to really start writing again. Even if it's just ideas or bad first drafts, it's something. I want to document my life and take more pictures, even if it is just instagram. Maybe I'll really look into a nice camera and learn how to use it effectively. I want to bring more creativity into my life.
I want to update this blog more often, and really learn how to use the website. I want to try out making my own layout and making this blog exactly what I want.
Alright, now let's change those "I want"s to "I will"s and we're on a roll!
Happy New Year!
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